I'm running across something. Sometimes when I do a piece, everything comes together well and I think its a great piece. Then I'll go to start something else, and it will look like I've never drawn before. It's like that's all I have in me. Just the one picture and all my energy is spent. How frustrating. I want to keep going and create some neat stuff but what comes out is rudimentary.

The only thing I think of to help that is to draw more! I've been doing this on and off for so long certain things are automatic. I gotta do more try different stuff. There is much to be said for the art classes that I took. I was challenged, you had to focus and work to bring out what was asked of you. I miss that. Yeah some of it I hated and was a pain but it was worth it.

There was a guy in one of my classes. Paul was his name. He did some really amazing stuff. He mostly sat alone and did his own thing. You could tell he had a natural talent. Well he didn't care for me very much,(I had a bit of a crush on him and not being a very subtle person well...) Anyway he avoided me like the plague which was fine but he knew the one person that could stand toe to toe with him was me. Maybe that is what irked him so. But he challenged me. Being here challenges me. So maybe that's a good thing. I'm gonna hit some bumps in the road. Gonna feel like a crap artist sometimes and sometimes I'm gonna feel brilliant just like I did with Paul.

Enough of this twaddle, I need some coffee and get ready for some serious change coming....